[tmtranscripts] Nebadonia 5.9.05 - The Dance Of Life

[JERRY LANE]

Dear Folks,    Here's another delightfully encouraging message from Mother 
Spirit, once again teasing us out of ourselves.  Jerry - Nytrayn at msn.com

Nebadonia 5.9.05

Marin TM Group

Dear Mother Spirit and Michael,    We thank You for this series of lessons 
and spiritual experiences.  Through You we are wonderfully assured that our 
human experiences of life, and each other, are safeguarded by a presence of 
God himself, forever framed in His meaning and value, so however these 
qualities may elude us in the moment, we know they will be ours some day.  
Amen.

Nebadonia:  Good evening My children, this is your mother, Nebadonia.  Just 
relax for a while and feel My presence all around you.  Now let the 
inside-you expand so it seems to go out forever and ever with no inner 
limitations at all.  Here we are - together again.  Can you feel My joy?  
This is My mother’s happiness just to have My children sharing this inner 
space with Me.  We are sharing our natures now, My children, for as you can 
feel Me within you, so you can know how I can feel you within Me.  We share 
this inner-space together.  True enough, Mine is a bit larger.  It 
encompasses the whole Local Universe of Nebadon.  All of Nebadon is within 
Me, and in a way I touch My sisters – the other Mother Spirits surrounding 
Me – and They touch Me, like bubbles in foam.  We are in touch much as your 
brother and sister human beings surrounding you.

For their human spirits too surround you, and these are perceptible.  In 
fact this is that flavor of character that you recognize in each other, 
especially old friends.  But even with strangers, if you are so inclined, if 
you release your capacity to wonder, to be curious, and to be impacted by 
those you meet, so you will begin to experience how all of you too move 
around in similar kinds of spiritual bubbles.  The more you get to know 
yourselves intimately and well in this all-encompassing now, so does your 
immediate and yet transcendent bubble of spirituality, your own bubbling 
fountain of creativity, replace the dusty bubble of familiarity that casts a 
dulling haze over this person approaching you now.

So how do you get ready for this encounter?  Can you get ready for it?  Here 
We have offered the notion that being here and now is truly a spiritual 
achievement.  But it is subtle, and seemingly paradoxical insofar as it is 
nothing you can take hold of.  Time is a bit too slippery for such 
heavy-handed attempts.  If you are anxious about being able to control every 
facet  of what might happen to you, every attempt to fix or forestall time 
as some sort of solid or predictable dimension that is directly susceptible 
or responsive to your will, only tends to grab you.  Here is where your 
personality – you – must surrender to the fact that everything perceptible, 
including all of yourself that you can perceive and know, is in motion.  
This is just the way your reality is.  You have no alternative to dancing 
along.  There is no place to stand outside this river of life.  Since this 
is the case, any conceivable preparation is a matter of: How well can you 
dance?  Like the familiar physical dancing you know, the sooner you 
consciously start the more mental and spiritual kind, the better.

True enough, your first attempts at this when you were quite young were 
rather herky-jerky.  It took a while just to remember that you had a body – 
always there to be fed and taken care of, however much it came and went in 
your mind.  So you all know to some degree how to dance along with life or 
you would have perished long ago.  Always give yourselves credit for getting 
as far as you have.  I mean – here you are! - dancing along.

Ah yes…but, how to grow?  How to enjoy the dance ever more?  We have called 
your attention to the fact that you are not dancing alone.  You are 
surrounded by something called a universe.  Both out there in space, and in 
here, spiritually, there are many personal beings, from God all the way down 
to yourselves – many levels of personal beings each with their own music: 
galaxies, Local Universes, Constellations, Systems, entire planets, nation 
states of different cultures, local societies, neighborhoods, families: so 
many different tunes being played.  Every individual you meet has a certain 
melody they have righteously earned in their soul.  You have yours too.  
This is how you go about your dance.  Do you know what your melody is?  Can 
you consciously recognize it – especially when you perceive it out there - 
in how it is intermingling with and influencing all the other soul-melodies 
you meet?

We started by wondering how can one get ready to meet all these other 
interlaced melodies, especially if the tune of the world seems to be a bit 
of a cacophony?  For indeed at any stage of spiritual development you will 
encounter what at first impinges upon your consciousness as random or 
meaningless sequences, but are truly just higher melodies you are beginning 
to contact.  What an intricately interwoven web this is.  So We hope it will 
help to think of it, realize it as music, music from a thousand different 
sources, a thousand different cultures and times.  As for the dance: are you 
eager to learn new steps?  Do you also realize how much you can fall back on 
what you call free-style?  You just hear the music and let it move you.  You 
will have found another way to let go and – let God.

One final caution – though you’ve heard it before.  Don’t take yourselves 
too seriously.  Don’t forget to have fun.

If you have any questions or comments this evening: Shall we dance?

Student:  Mother Nebadonia, I have a question about dancing.  Some people 
have music that they really like and we find it easy to dance with.  And 
then other people may have music we don’t like.  Can You say anything about 
dancing when the music doesn’t really match or line up so we can dance 
together?

Nebadonia:  Well first, My son, I accept your observation.  I think this is 
an experience you humans have very often.  Several things suggest 
themselves.  There is a saving grace in the very wonder of what this other 
person is doing.  So it may be advantageous just to observe for a while 
without any notion of interference.  This is part of being open – 
recognizing these strange movements and not being instantaneously against 
them.  This in turn requires a certain self confidence to not feel 
threatened by the mere existence of this strange music, and this odd 
behavior, but be content to observe it for a while.  Then too you may find 
that the dance floor is large enough, and so you may enjoy doing a few steps 
of your own, and maybe catch their attention.  They too may have the grace 
to observe you for a while.  Perhaps the two styles here are not compatible. 
  In this case a live-and-let-live attitude would be most appropriate.  Then 
it could be that there is a higher harmony yet undiscovered which enables 
the two of you to compliment each other in some as yet unimaginable way.  
But you would never find this unless you both gave each other room and 
danced along a while.  So enjoy and encourage yourself in the self 
confidence this takes.   For however strange this other dance may appear at 
first, the simple observation of it becomes a part of your soul, and even, 
perhaps, some day, a part of your repertoire.

Are these any other questions you have about our analogy here…or anything 
else?

Student:  Yes, Nebadonia, on another matter: I know You know in Your 
omniscience about the situation I and some of my colleges face in the way 
we’re being attacked politically…by forces who are keeping themselves 
invisible to us; and the toxic effect of these attacks – observed by many – 
which are affecting me a lot.  What can You say to me now about what to do 
about these periodic attacks, and come out of this situation with safety and 
grace?

Nebadonia:  First I would ask you to be as clear in your mind as you can be 
about the nature of what you are choosing to involve yourself in.  The 
political arena is one of the most concentrated manifestations of social 
power where the players derive much from the unconscious assignment of 
individual, personal power.  In other words, various politicians and 
associated institutions derive enormous power from the unconscious and 
unexamined traditions of the society at large.  Further, because at this 
stage of international relationships all existing human governments are 
freely accorded by their constituencies with a necessary need for secrecy, 
all the way from where the game is being played on the highest levels of 
brute military power, all the way down, in some societies, to the local 
neighborhoods – that whole gamut; so as you step into this relationship and 
are attempting to influence this realm to be more the way you feel it should 
be, you can encounter great hidden depths of power.  This power is truly, 
from moment to moment, some individual’s possession.  However unconsciously 
this power is given to individuals by their constituencies, it is all the 
stronger for that very reason.  But it resides in individual persons who are 
exercising it in all the different ways that particular societies are 
organized on Urantia - from the most representative democracies to the most 
totalitarian dictatorships.  When you choose to increase your personal 
ability to exercise this power, you are in a zero-sum game.  So make no 
mistake: if they are at all awake, those from whom you wish to take this 
power will immediately sense what you are about, as it affects them.

Beyond this it is hard for Me to articulate because, especially in your 
country now, political power is so complexly tied up with media and the 
degree to which various groups of people are aware of what is being done for 
them and to them, and the ways which individuals can organize to influence 
both legitimate, and what you might consider illegitimate organs of 
government.

For you personally, be as open as you can be with yourself - to your 
motivations and your goals.  There is a constant reevaluation of means and 
ends required for this kind of living surgery on the body politic.  Try to 
continue to grow - to help your values evolve, and to know the cost of 
whatever you suggest – in human terms.  Does this help you, My son?

Student: Yes, thank You for this in-depth answer, Nebadonia.  I’ll be sure 
to read the transcript too, and take this up with You one-on-one.  Thank 
You.

Nebadonia:  You’re welcome, My son.  Be in My love.

Student:  Dear Nebadonia, I’ve been formulating sort of a 
Thought-Adjusterized-animal understanding ask for help to, in my dance and 
projection out to others, to get above the curve…like a ceiling, almost like 
deep meditation, like from a possible belief system crowding in the womb 
that, as we march through society and get a little bit behind the curve…  I 
remember once having a communication release in Boston where I felt 
absolutely in present time and committed a Thought-Adjuster improved…  It 
seems as we go crashing through life not quite in focus, not quite feeling 
like marching in step to the infinite, but just a little bit off, and it 
seems to be a little bit of Catholic guilt, a little bit of distraction of 
an animal/chemical poisoning…  And so my prayer is: I feel an improvement 
already tonight to…  How do You answer this, because it seems extremely 
causal to get more of my personality into present time and project out my 
fairly true optimistic self, and be more socially and spiritually fragrant 
to my neighbors, and therefore more valuable and more - Jesus says - more 
serviceable, but I’m sure there are a lot of people just a bit out of focus, 
and I ask You to help in that area.

Nebadonia:  Well, My son, I have a great thing to ask of you.  I want you to 
at least entertain the notion, even if you cannot accept it totally, that 
you are dancing better than you know.

Student:  Flattery only has to be one percent truth to be believed, and I 
want to believe.

Nebadonia:  It also points you the way to dance better.  To extend our 
analogy further: you can invent/discover your own somewhat form-less 
free-style, but you have also learned by going to school – in this analogy, 
all your education and your spiritual curiosity leading you through so many 
books and relationships – all of this formality added to your repertoire.  
And so now you are feeling a need  to combine these so that the formal 
instruction you’ve known – all these concepts - can be more free-flowing, 
connected, and less abstract.  At the same time your free-style can use some 
clever little moves in it – forms that have been passed down quite a while.  
This is what you are asking: how to be a better dancer, how to keep growing.

This evening I asked you: how do you prepare?  If you put this along a 
dimension of time, preparation is what you can do before you step out onto 
the floor.  It’s like attending a dance studio before you go out on a social 
event where you will be observed: practice as compared to what you call - 
the real thing.  Be open to all the different melodies coming to you from 
all the different folks you meet.  Pick up a little wiggle here, a little 
twinkle-toes there: all these add to your repertoire.  But remember what you 
introduced the other evening as the power of now.  This is where your 
practice transforms into, and becomes the real thing.  As to focus: it will 
always be too late to wish you had more practice.  Now it is real.  Now you 
are on the floor with all you have learned up to this point, and any attempt 
to remember it all while you are dancing is going to immediately get you 
into trouble.  What is needed is the quality of self-forgetfulness.  When it 
is now, you have to go with what you’ve got.  I’ll say it again: it will 
always be too late to wish you had more practice: this will always keep you 
behind the curve.

But here let Me point out two enormous saving graces.  One is the music 
itself.  If you look around and listen well to this constant creativity We 
have been trying to help you experience, you will know in your heart that 
most of this music of the world is being played by God himself.  So as you 
get greater and greater spiritual sensitivity, you will perceive His music 
ever stronger.  The other saving grace is your partner – the other human 
being you are dancing with.  Here in this other seemingly limited human body 
is another unfathomable source.  Like any good dancer, both learning and 
teaching, learn to both lead and follow, equally.  Discover the joy in both, 
simultaneously.  Appreciate what your partner is doing.  Does this help you, 
My son?

Student:  It does, Nebadonia, really good things.  Thank You.

Nebadonia:  Of the three things I mentioned – the self-forgetfulness, the 
tuning into God’s creations, His music, and the other person or persons you 
are moving with – for you particularly it is a question of the 
self-forgetfulness.  There is no way you can estimate how you are doing when 
you are successfully self-forgetting.  So don’t try to pick yourself up by 
your bootstraps.  Follow you heart.  Enjoy the music and your partners.  And 
believe Me: you will be – radiating – the very love you wish to convey.  
Indeed, this is how you’ve been stepping off successfully and un-self-aware 
all along.  Right in focus.  Stay in My love.

Student:  Mother, I saw in the conversation with (Student) I’ve been trying 
to control the dance so I wouldn’t make a mistake.  But I also saw that I 
have to become the dance – what You mean by self-forgetfulness.  And just do 
the dance instead of trying to make the dance do something.  Your 
illustration is easily understood, even though I’m not a very good dancer – 
physically, that is.  Thank You.

Nebadonia:  You are very welcome, My son.  Yes, it is hard to forget 
yourself at times when your heart truly wants to do the right thing. This is 
why I made the suggestion to not take yourself too seriously, or be overly 
self-conscious, but take the mistakes light-heartily.  Above all, extend 
this same courtesy, this same loving graciousness to your dance partners, 
and everyone else on the floor.  Forget their mistakes to help them forget 
themselves.  So I’ll say this too again: don’t get so caught up in 
technique, or comparisons, you forget to have fun.  We ask you most humbly, 
My children, to enjoy yourselves, to trust that light-heartedness and joy 
are the truest means of finding your way.  Trust yourselves.  The music is 
playing.  Just step off.

And so our dance comes to an end this evening.  Yet I am always here in your 
mind, teasing you with a do-se-do from time to time.  I’m always here.  My 
arms are extended.  God’s music is always playing.  Michael is out here on 
the floor too.  Will you join Us?  Be in Our love and peace.

Students:  Thank You, Mother…  Thanks…  All our love…