[tmtranscripts] Michael 2.20.06

[JERRY LANE]

Michael—February 20, 2006

Marin T/M Group—Mill Valley, California—U. S. A.

MICHAEL—T/R-JL

(The realm of will dignity)
(Denial)
(The power of fun)
(Michael’s peace)
(Personality and ego)
(Balancing incoming and outgoing)
(Justice, mercy, and fairness)
(Decisiveness and freedom)
(The power of choice)

Dear Michael and Mother Spirit,  Well, here we are again, Your bright-eyed 
children brimming with anticipation to be with You once again.  We find we 
are coming to love You all the more as we get to know You and appreciate the 
personalities You two have.  Above all, we appreciate Your being very 
forthright with us and, as we say, telling it like as it is.  In this You 
show Your trust in us and our desire to embrace reality.  For this we are 
most grateful.  Amen.

MICHAEL:  Good evening, My sons, this is Michael.  How it warms My heart 
that you desire to know Me all the more, for above all I would wish to 
be--for My children--approachable.  This is why Mother and I invite you to 
be with Us anytime it occurs to you, day or night, at work or in your 
leisure, in times of joy and having fun, as well as those times when you 
feel you really need Us to help you work through some problem.  Ask Us to 
help open your mind to new possibilities, new insights as to what is 
happening to you, and the way to find and be in accord with God.  Anytime at 
all We welcome you to feel Our presence in your life.

(The realm of will dignity)

As Mother said last week, it’s been Our purpose to help you perceive all the 
dimensions of reality you are involved with, and to make these as conscious 
for you as possible. There is a wisdom in God’s assignment of freedom to all 
His many different kinds of personal beings.  Generally speaking, you are 
only free within the realm of your own consciousness.  I’m sure you are all 
aware of not being consciousness and in control of all the thousand and one 
little biochemical events going on within your body incessantly, day and 
night.  You’re no doubt thankful you don’t have to make constant running 
decisions as to how to digest the apple you just ate, so not all 
unconsciousness events that are happening to you and within you are even 
needful of your conscious decision.

But once you get above the higher animal level of functioning and your mind 
truly becomes human, embracing Mother Spirit’s Adjuncts of Worship and  
Wisdom, then you are in the realm of will dignity.  But you must choose to 
exercise this.  The more you feel your field of consciousness growing, the 
more your will must keep right up with it.  You must choose to take on ever 
greater realms of response-ability.  For the rather lazy soul this seems 
like some kind of monstrous treadmill, where the greater your ability, the 
more is thrown at you, so to speak, the more reality somehow requires of 
you.

But both Mother and I have endeavored to point out what a blessing this is, 
and what a curse it would be just to indolently coast along through 
eternity.  What a terrible hell it would be if you were never challenged, or 
were incapable, yourself, of embracing these challenges that are a part of 
growing into ever greater realms of experience.  This is the most 
fundamental meaning of death, a very great and undeniable and unavoidable 
change.  It will precipitate you into another world of enormously increased 
perceptions, sensations, and responsibilities.  This is that good work We 
promise you, that will ever be there for you to embrace, and do your part to 
help the Supreme Being move one more step along.

You can see this reflected in part in Mother Spirit’s lesson last week where 
She was contrasting a real ability you have within, what you call 
psychological denial. What a freedom it is, at times a very critical 
freedom: to be able to deny for some short while something that strikes you 
as overwhelming.  This is the fact you are able to put off something for 
awhile, and deny it’s existence, seemingly safe and secure in your 
self-created reality.  Then She contrasted this with the enormous creativity 
of God, manifesting the reality about you. These are all the particular 
singular facts you experience as an infinity both without--essentially 
forever into space, and within, into the infinitesimal.  All this particular 
detail you miss whenever you withdraw exclusively into you own self-created 
world.  And so We pointed this out so you can bring this dynamic too into 
your consciousness; so you can have a choice.

Do We pique your curiosity as to what may be right there in front of you, or 
all around you, you have been unconsciously avoiding?

(Denial)

With this in mind you should have a deeper appreciation for Lucifer’s folly. 
  For it was this freedom which enabled Him to ignore the real spiritual 
reality of God himself; and then too the love of Mother and I, for Our son.  
His own personal conception of reality grew so enormous in His mind that He 
was able to ignore these profound spiritual realities.  In doing so his 
personality became so terribly warped, so self-clinging to itself, that He 
consistently refused all the mercy and love being offered Him, more or less 
because it would have been admission of His original error.  So like a 
drowning man clinging onto an anchor, down He went.

Even He, a primary Lanonandek Son, a brilliant being, sovereign of a System 
of over six hundred evolutionary worlds, still He too had to face a final 
reckoning, for as We said: denial only works for awhile.  The period between 
His grievous error and final reckoning seems a very long time in human terms 
but, as your Urantia book points out, compared to the length of Lucifer’s 
life before this event, it would be as if a person who had committed a most 
heinous crime were arrested two hours after the fact, judged two hours after 
that, and then extinguished another two hours after judgment.  So it remains 
an appropriate mystery to ponder: how could a brilliant being such as He, 
with that length of living in a universe created by God, come to deny the 
existence of our Universal Father, and the love of His more immediate 
parents, Mother Nebadonia and Myself?

You have to turn this mystery outside-in and, with your whole heart, embrace 
it. Let it feed your wonder and your curiosity.  What might you be missing 
out on that is, Oh!--so very real and rewarding, so unfathomably rich in 
potential?  Don’t be afraid of ambition, My children, if it is truly 
spiritual, if you truly want greater value in your life.  I can feel, for 
some of you this is a mystery in itself: how can your life have more value?  
And I would admit this is quite a challenge to get you to wondering.  But 
this is what We mean when We say you are capable of growing spiritually.  We 
have so often pointed you, not at those finite articles in your life--the 
various material possessions that you enjoy, but at the fact you are 
surrounded by little walking infinities.  There are other beings, human 
beings much like yourselves, infinite both to you and to themselves.

This is the mystery of another human being.  So obviously this is one way to 
grow spiritually, by welcoming all these fellow spiritual beings on your 
world into your life.  They are God’s supreme creations.  In addition, even 
though they are not physically perceptible to you, from time to time We 
introduce you to the enormous spiritual family that surrounds you, both 
right on Urantia, then on all the other evolutionary planets and 
architectural spheres without number.  So We invite you to use your freedom, 
My children.  Willfully and with great determination and joy, embrace the 
adventure set before you.

(The power of fun)

Use your minds to explore all the things you might do this new day.  Burst 
those bubbles of familiarity and break that death-grip of habit.  Feel Our 
presence within your mind and your spirit, like the bubbling fountain of 
God’s creativity, and from time to time just let go all your cares and 
concerns and have fun with a friend.  This is the most wonderful way of 
renewing yourself.  It’s with all the delightful little choices you make 
when you are playing that you truly approach the essence of divinity. The 
enormous power of fun--when you let things occur to you, when you allow 
yourselves to be frivolous, just to see what happens.

There is a time for this, so as you provide for your more earthly essentials 
of food and shelter, don’t forget to provide for your spirit, and let it 
play.  Embrace all the particular details of God’s reality, and invite in 
any stray fact that might be unappreciated so far.  And so, My children, use 
your freedom to be free.  Yes, at times it is a fearful thing, this freedom 
you have.  So much is riding on your shoulders: your whole future.  Yet: 
what glorious confidence We have in you.  If you could only see your whole 
souls as We do, what confidence you would have in yourselves.

So be gone, dull habit.  Go ahead and burst your bubble of familiarity, My 
children.  Go forth boldly, forward into the future.  If you have any 
questions or comments, this evening, let’s play with them for a while.

Student:   Father Michael, what does it mean when You say, Be in My peace?  
Is that a place to be, a feeling, a state of being, or just what?

(Michael’s peace)

MICHAEL:  Well, C, how about: all of the above. (students laugh; Yes)  Why 
could I see that you could see that coming? (students laugh)  Obviously it’s 
more of a mental place than a physical one to be in, but for many of you 
just starting off, it has to be a physical place.  You have to find your own 
comfortable, protected niche to get peaceful in, then, starting from this 
home base, you can slowly expand your peaceful space, hopefully to include 
your entire life.

Mentally, it’s a kind of stillness.  Again, initially, deliberately set 
aside some time apart from your normal concerns, especially those things you 
feel are driving you.  These you have internalized and made a part of your 
mentality, and so you must make an effort to consciously relax these 
concerns and worries, and value the time apart from them.  You may even have 
to argue with yourself a bit to persuade yourself to value this time.

Spiritually, you’re trying for an expansion of inner perception. We offer 
the path of first being aware of your living processes, your breathing, your 
heartbeat. Try to feel these growing ever larger, for it will point the way 
to a greater value of appreciating you are a living fact in the universe.  
No matter how negative some particular part of your life seems to be at the 
moment, you yourself are.  You absolutely exist.

But you must allow room for this value to grow in appreciation, appreciation 
for life, appreciation for the Supreme Being who gave you life.  This is 
worship, My son, this being thankful for life itself.  This is intrinsically 
peaceful, the very antithesis of worry and anxiety, because as you relax 
these peripheral concerns, your personality can draw closer to itself.  This 
is true, even though--as you talked about last week and then Mother Spirit 
reiterated--you cannot directly perceive yourself as in the saying: You are 
the eye that sees, but cannot see itself.

As you get more and more peaceful, your consciousness expands into the 
higher reaches where it begins to contact spiritual beings other than 
yourself.  You can have an actual, positive perception of Mother and I.  
This is My peace that I invite you to experience.  But this is also the 
closest you can come, My son, to experiencing yourself, realizing yourself 
as a separate and unique entity.  In this peace We share is also where your 
soul, this enormous life you have already lived, can come to you.

This is what We would have you experience.  This is your personality 
fulfilling its function of unifying all the separate elements that go to 
make up a human being.  This is the irony of when you are experiencing this 
peacefulness, this enormous presence of spirit, you are not experiencing a 
nothingness.  You are most truly fulfilling your potential.  Does this give 
you a clear idea of My peace?

Student:  Well, um, yes and no. It does open a whole field of inquiry that I 
had never thought of before, and it sounds a lot like You are talking about 
stillness and the exercise of stillness.  I don’t understand this statement: 
I cannot perceive myself.

(Personality and ego)

MICHAEL:  First, C, let Me explain that here We are pointing out a very 
critical distinction between personality and ego.  All you can perceive of 
yourself, and feel yourself to be--your identity, who you are, your 
memories, everything that is perceptible to you--is what We call ego.  And 
yet We tell you there is more.  You are larger.  In fact you are much more 
enormous than what you yourself can be aware of at any particular moment in 
time.  Do you remember our exercise in what it takes just to relive a few 
moments of your life?  (Yes)

This is what We mean by the enormity of your being, your soul, that you 
yourself cannot directly perceive.  Your consciousness in not yet capable of 
expanding enough to encompass all you really are as a spiritual being--such 
that Mother and I can perceive.  Your Father Fragment is very much a part of 
your mind, adjusting your thoughts towards ever greater comprehensions of 
reality, yet you cannot usually feel this presence as much as you will one 
day be capable of doing.  This is the difference between your fundamental 
reality as a God-created personality, and this personality’s conscious 
ability to fully perceive himself in any moment in time.  Does this clarify 
that distinction?

Student:  Yes it does, but it still opens up a great deal of area of inquiry 
about who I am, and what I perceive myself to be.  I understand that what I 
perceive is my identity and not necessarily the spiritual part, although I’m 
not too clear on that one either.

MICHAEL: Good!  (students laugh)  This is just what We hoped for. (more 
laughter)  Do you feel a little like you’ve been put in a shaker and 
vigorously shaken up a bit?  You are very much getting the point.

Student:  Yes, I do in a way, but what’s more apparent is the inquiry into 
what all this means.  I don’t know quite the question to ask, other than I 
look forward to finding out what it is that’s going on in me, and actually 
getting closer to You and Mother.  I would love to experience more of You 
and Mother.

MICHAEL:  And We have shown you the way.  It is in practicing stillness, 
which is another ability you have to slowly earn, of letting the more 
commonplace, day to day notions of who you are subside, so that your wonder, 
your curiosity as to not only who you are, but what you are, what kind of a 
being you are, can come forth.

Strangely enough, you will find this is deeply satisfying in itself.  This 
is both the wonder itself, and what it leads to.  For it can lead to My 
peace, this profound experience of your positive being.

In a very profound way, My son, your eternal search for God is also your 
eternal search for yourself.  Your faith is not only extending outward to 
embrace His creation, it is extending inward to embrace and experience 
evermore who you are, and what you are capable of becoming.

This is the goal of perfection, My son. (Yes)  This is the goal of not only 
finding God, but becoming more like Him--(Yes)--which is another way of 
saying: closing the distance between you. (Yes)  Here you are face to face 
with the paradox of the unmoving center being the pivot point of the most 
dynamic action. (Yes) The ability you exercise and earn in approaching that 
center gives you mastery over the action.  You may have to think about that 
one for a while.  (students laugh)

Student:  Yes, I will.

MICHAEL:  While you are here in My presence, I can give you some feeling of 
these realities.  Do you feel you have enough to consider for a while?

Student:  Yes, Father, I do.  Thank You very much.  It’s actually very good 
to have an inquiry like this.  I haven’t really had one in a long time--to 
look forward to, to look into, to discover.  Thank You very much.

MICHAEL:  You are very welcome, My son, for all of the above.  It’s a true 
delight for Me when you can experience these things that are so subtle, and 
yet so powerful.  (Yes)  I invite you to keep stretching for My peace.  
(Yes, thank You)

Student:  Dear Michael: I would ask for some insight in the near future in 
helping my daughter and her boyfriend, J M, as they...in their amazing 
things to help improve the world.  Thank You.

MICHAEL:  Yes, My son, could I ask you to be a little more specific as to 
what part of their work you may be uncertain about?

Student:  Yes.  My daughter in particular has asked for help in writing her 
book, and it seems to be about the soul.  She uses PRH, and her divinity 
school teachings, and some of the Urantia; and her boyfriend seems to be 
really extending himself to help the computer world, help individuals keep 
things private.  That technology seems to be of advantage to the whole 
world.  And as they try to run a household, please help me fit in with them 
and be of real service.

MICHAEL:  Yes, My son,  so your concern is very much with your relationship 
here, how you can help them in their chosen endeavors.  (Yes)

MICHAEL:  We’ve talked about openness so much, openness towards others, that 
perhaps We need to think of it in a fresh new way.  Consider a balance 
between what you might think of as the outgoing expression of yourself, and 
the incoming self-expression of another.  It calls for the need to be 
suspended, and suspended rather completely, so you can take in another.

(Balancing incoming and outgoing)
I’m sure you can recall some of the lessons We gave about the spiritual 
value of self-forgetfulness.  (Yes)  This is the greatest gift you can give 
to another while you are in their presence.  Just let go of yourself, 
inside, and take them in, so you can respond fully to what they just have 
given you.  This is the real knack of being spontaneous: letting go of 
yourself and trusting your ability will grow, your ability to respond to 
them adequately, fully.

This is a kind of sacrifice of your own agendas, your own pre-judgments and 
expectations for, when you think about it, this is what makes conversation, 
and being with ones friends, really worth while, really lively and fun.  
This is when neither party is striving to achieve some previously designed 
agenda.  When both are spontaneously relating to each other, the overriding 
spirit they both possess can come into play.  Think of it as an 
extra-personal spontaneity making its appearance.  This is just another name 
for those really good times you’ve known with someone else.  You’ve both had 
a wonderful journey and ended up somewhere neither could have foreseen.  You 
were each all the more delighted, and delightful, for that very reason.

Here you are each offering and giving to the other that which you cannot do 
by yourself alone.  You are finding a way of tuning into a dynamic that is a 
true gestalt, and has its own life.  This is all the more important, My son, 
the closer your living quarters become.  You find a way of granting each 
other this kind of space and response.  It also means being very sensitive 
to when someone else needs to be alone with themselves.  And so, secure in 
yourself, you can accept this without any feelings of being rejected or put 
off, because you are capable of taking any response from another person with 
equanimity.

These are all enormous abilities of self-confidence. They really help when 
you are living with someone else.  This is your deep respect for another 
person.
Does this help when you consider these relationships, My son?

Student:  Yes, it does, dear Michael, it’s very comforting, and very frank 
and fair.  On that note, I’d ask for a little help with the definition of 
fairness that my brother and I work with all the time.  In the Urantia book, 
it’s mentioned as wisdom adjusted by mercy.  I find that the most profound, 
and a little bit exciting--the ethics required to really be fair.

MICHAEL (after a very log pause):  There are several concepts all so closely 
tied together it’s hard to know exactly where to start--as you put the 
question.

(Justice, mercy, and fairness)

Justice is a quality that’s seldom possible of achieving by a singular 
entity other than God himself.  So you are informed in The Urantia book, 
justice is largely a matter of group assessment; on the largest scale, by 
the Trinity: it’s a Trinity function.  Yet the Trinity itself is secondary 
to God’s mercy; and so you end up with a concept of justice tempered with 
mercy.  At the same time you know that from God’s point of view there is no 
separation between the two.

It is God’s ability to apply this justice-tempered-with-mercy absolutely 
equally to any being in any situation whatsoever that strikes the human soul 
as fair.  This is often expressed in the saying that God is no respecter of 
persons.  There is no favoritism being played in terms of His ultimate 
reality.  But as it works itself out, this is an unfathomable mystery for 
God answers to no one.  Why He seems to save one individual in one 
situation, while another, in a seemingly identical situation 
is—seemingly--allowed to perish: who could possibly understand that mystery 
without seeing the complete souls, the complete beings of the two 
individuals involved?

And so cosmic fairness as you see it worked out is very much a matter of 
faith in the essential nature of God.  Within human society there is a 
microcosm of this very same attitude.  Fairness implies all individuals 
being treated equally, in the context of similar situations.   Does this 
help your understanding, My son?

Student:  Yes, it does, dear Michael.  One word that came up in our 
discussion is that compassion might be a way of…an attitude to carry, as we 
try to be fair.  That one word alone is hard to wrestle with.  If we have an 
attitude of compassion, it’s easy maybe to get the insight to do the fair 
thing.  Is that a good idea?

MICHAEL:  Yes, very much so.  In this sense compassion is just another name 
for mercy.  It is merciful not to be prejudiced and pre-judge someone.  It 
is merciful and compassionate to consider another in all of their abilities 
and limitations.  It is compassionate and merciful to strive for this 
fairness.  Is there anything else you wish to question, My son?

Student:  I think that’s a fair amount.  Thanks again.

MICHAEL:  And be in My peace. (very long pause)

Do you have any questions or comments this evening, D ?

Student:  I’ve been thinking over the past week about what Mother said to me 
about my over-generosity of giving people second, third and fourth chances.  
And I wonder why I do that in spite of the pain it causes me at times, and 
how it can lead to my own detriment.  I do know it challenges me, and there 
is a part of me that wants to give the people the benefit of the doubt, 
because I have a high regard for who they are within themselves.   I guess 
the pain I feel is when--and this is my own expectation--is when I see a 
person, or persons fall short.  I feel they could do better, or they’re not 
seeing the total picture, or they’re caught up in patterns.  I realize 
that’s my own judgment, and my own moral indignation, but the pain is very 
real.

But…and I remembered You asked me too about my freedom in this situation, or 
in any situation that creates pain within, even though I may be dragged 
along.  So I’ve been focusing on that and allowing myself, my true self, to 
override my egotistic reactions to what someone outside is doing.  It seems 
kind of self-defeating if I’m causing myself pain over someone else’s action 
outside of me.  That would be a living hell, if I reacted to everyone’s--You 
know--irrationalities.  So what I’ve gleaned, and we’ve talked about this 
many times before, is to really be present, and to experience all this, and 
experience my freedom, short-lived as it might be.  And so it’s like, one of 
the things I thought about as I was laying in bed the other day is, what 
Jesus must have been experiencing as He was tortured and then crucified, 
because He knew and loved the people who were torturing Him.  I’m not saying 
I’m experiencing that, but that was what came to mind.  He didn’t lash out 
and become all angry, and anxious, and whatever.  He knew the higher 
purpose, the higher ground that was happening.  He knew that the people who 
were doing what was being done to him were not coming from a place of 
reality, of truth, of love.

So that is the challenge for me, because when I see something I feel is 
wrong or irrational, I too can say to myself that if they came from a place 
of truth, if they truly knew and understood who they were, and are, and will 
be, then they wouldn’t do that action, or say those words.  Maybe what I’m 
presenting is too lofty and too high-minded.  But this is the best way I can 
vocalize what I’ve been experiencing the past few days.

What I’ve noticed too is that there have been certain things that I’ve read 
the past few days as well, from different sources, different books that 
kind-of reiterate that: to get beyond my own limited reactions which do no 
good for anyone, do not help the situation at all, do not be healing, do not 
honor who they are or myself, do not bring any fresh air, or discoveries, or 
possibility of dialogue.

MICHAEL: D, if I could help clarify these points, I think Mother was saying 
there is no such thing as over-generosity.  If you are giving someone so 
many chances, this is just your way of evaluating this person’s behavior.  
She pointed to a increasing ability of decisiveness, with at the same time 
an ever growing sensitivity to yourself and others, so you don’t throw out 
the baby with the bath, if you will, and throw out your tender sensibilities 
in order to be decisive.

(Decisiveness and freedom)

But I was suggesting, in terms of freedom, for you to ask yourself in a 
situation with another person, what is keeping you there?  What within you 
is choosing this contact; or indeed, are you choosing this contact, or are 
you simply unable to break it off?  So we got into a discussion of: if you 
are choosing to keep certain options of the future open, certain 
possibilities you would like to see, there is a price for this.  It helps 
for you to be aware you are continually choosing to pay this price to keep 
the contact.

If you feel you are not able to break away, this is something you have to 
look at.  This implies some kind of addiction, or entrapment, or some 
genuine inability on your part you have to wonder about, and accept all the 
way down to the bedrock of reality: you are choosing what is happening to 
you.  It takes the question out of the realm of being overly-generous, which 
could be just an ego-reflection.  It is actually overly-complicated because 
you can understand this, and are striving not be judgmental.

The purpose of asking yourself where your freedom lies is to determine if 
you are divided against yourself, which is quite common.  The function of 
your personality is to unify all these parts of you, but no one is perfect 
at this right out of the gate.  This is something you will be studying for 
many lifetimes to come, for it is a goal to strive for—this unity within 
yourself.  I offer these tools, sometimes just for the sake of freedom 
itself.  You have to make decisions.

Once long ago We gave a lesson on how some of these decisions will have a 
quality of arbitrariness about them because as much as you try to weigh all 
of the considerations involved, there is a final point at which you weigh 
in, yourself.  From this point of view, this is arbitrary.  None of the 
constituent factors are telling you which way to go.  You choose to go this 
way or that.  This is you.  This is decisiveness.  This is why it is so 
necessary to stay open and sensitive to what you are doing to someone else 
by this decision.  So I am not implying you do not make the decision.  You 
just do not fool yourself as to what you are doing.

We even looked at the case where you have to decide for someone else because 
only you are capable of making such a decision.  So you accept the 
consequences.  You add them to your soul; they become a part of you.  This 
is what Mother meant when She said you have to find a way of evaluating what 
you’re doing in some other way than by the pain it is causing you: why is it 
abrading you?  I know that is one you are going to have to think about.  
(students laugh)   How do you choose without being cavalier, or disregardful 
of others?  But it is also, My son, just one more step up.

Student:  Well, in a sense a decision has been made, about the other person. 
  But it’s taking a long time to come into fruition.  It does feel like I’m 
being dragged along.  So I have to bite my tongue and bide my time for 
something to happen.

MICHAEL:  Yes, but are you choosing to do so?

Student:  Choosing to…?

MICHAEL:  Be dragged along.  Could you not simply break the contact at any 
time?  (Hmmm…)  Where is your freedom here?

Student:  It’s not as easy as that.  Because I have expressed these things 
to her—that I feel like I’m being dragged along.  Can she understand?

MICHAEL:  But you, My son, feel the necessity not to let any other being 
control you.

Student:  I’ll look at that.  And why I allow that to happen.  I mean I 
can’t go and say, I need to get on with my life—get out!  I want to be fair.

MICHAEL:  That is a choice, is it not?  You could do that.  (I could…)  So 
you are choosing not to.  (Yes)  You see, My son, I’m trying to get you down 
to this bedrock where you are choosing to do what you are doing.  
(Yeah…Yeah)  But do you feel free?

Student:  Times I do, and times I don’t.  (laughter, Michael included)  
That’s how I started this whole thing!  It’s a matter of my attitude about 
it.  If I come from a place of spirit, and understand what are the processes 
going on, then I feel free.  If I feel like I’m being dragged along, that 
she’s procrastinating and I cannot live my life, then I don’t feel free.  If 
I come from the spiritual place, then things will move along more smoothly, 
for all of us.  I’m in a place of honoring her and all she’s going through.  
If I feel I’m being dragged, then I’m angry at everyone.  And that’s not a 
place of freedom.

MICHAEL:  Well, you are slowly understanding how it works.  You have to grow 
in spiritual power so you can evaluate these two contrary attitudes you get 
into.  You have to value the one greater than the other, so when this lesser 
kind of worry, or anxiety pops up, you realize it is so much the lesser.  
It’s just what you are getting caught up in.  This is gaining spiritual 
maturity—the spiritual part.

Student:  It’s interesting as I go through that process of allowing and 
honoring everyone involved, my ego says—excuse the expression—what the hell 
are you doing?  She’s never going to leave.  Push!  Push!  Tell her to get 
out!  But I know that’s not cool.  Each person here is infinite potential, 
is life.  So…thank You–-again!  (much laughter)

MICHAEL:  D, I think you are getting a real grasp on what is sometimes 
called a round—a closed circle; or a roller-coaster of up and down, 
emotionally.  The only way out is to exercise the freedom to break the 
circle.

Student:  Yes, I understand that, and the day is fast approaching.

MICHAEL:  Until that time just try to do your best to recognize what 
attitude you are in.  Some people getting out of certain kinds of drug 
addiction--which are just other kinds of closed circles or 
roller-coasters--experience what they correctly call, stinking thinking.  
You simply have to recognize it as such, and not credit it.  Otherwise you 
just feed it.  This is what I mean by value.  You have to value your freedom 
of mind even if it means going to some pains to exercise it, to be content 
with where you are.  The choice is yours.

Student:  I’ll tell you one thing: I’m not content with where I am.  I guess 
that’s obvious.  But I do thank You.

MICHAEL:  You’ re welcome, My son.  Just feel--to find My peace.  I welcome 
you with open arms.

(The power of choice)

So, My children, we come face to face with choices and decisions in our 
lives.  As you alluded to My life as Jesus a little earlier, I was fortunate 
enough that by the time this final, supreme trial came upon Me, My human 
half--if you wish to think of it this way--My full humanity had matured to 
the point that, as a human being I was able to hang on moment by moment, and 
find the grace to accept and realize what was happening to Me, and continue 
to choose it, for I had the power of that choice.  This is what Mother 
Spirit and I mean when We say, More power to you!  Don’t be afraid of power. 
  The greatest evil in the world has been done by powerless people, as 
strange and ironic as that may seem at first hearing.  We invite you to say 
and deeply experience within yourself, in addressing our Universal Father: 
It is my will that Your will be done.  For that is the only way it happens: 
He gives this much of himself to us.  There is His power, and there is 
self-power, and we try to make these two, one.  Be in My peace.  Good 
evening.


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