[tmtranscripts] Welmek, August 1, 2002

[Donna DIngillo]

WELMEK – INSPIRED LIVING
AUGUST 1, 2002


Good evening.  This is your friend and teacher Welmek.  I do so look
forward to our weekly sessions together, and I hope that you have had a
fruitful week in spending time with the Father and in incorporating some
of the previous lessons into your daily living experiences.  

Daily living is quite a challenge on your planet, is it not?  How many of
you, had you known what you were in for, would have signed up to come to
Urantia for your human life?  That was a jest.  Perhaps you did not find
that humorous?  

But we do understand some of the difficulties that you have here, for
some truly are consequences of the divergence in your evolutionary
workings of the divine plan.  And some of the difficulties are
manifestations of your own human mind: rampant thoughts, unspiritized
belief systems, improper communication between your body and your spirit
that would enable greater ease in your thinking.  Some of these things
are under your control, and I wish to address these tonight as part of
the discourse on “Inspired Living”.  

For it is your choices now in how you live your life, and how to stay
inspired to overcome these habits that keep you from achieving all that
you wish to as a child of God.  So I ask you to go into the stillness
now, and ask your spirit to help you understand what is the one habit now
in your being that is holding you back.  And I will not ask you to share
this with me as much as I will ask you to share with me how having this
habit makes you feel. So go now into the stillness, and when you feel
ready to share your feelings about this particular habit, please offer
it.  

Student: I didn’t hear the nature of the habit.

Welmek: In going into the stillness, you ask your spirit to show you, to
whisper to you, what is that habit that is holding you back now. Each
person will have a unique habit. (Pause.)

Student: Welmek, for me, the habit, if I might mention it is, not
practicing stillness conscientiously. I have wonderful moments throughout
the day, spontaneous communications of a spirit nature, just a feeling of
thankfulness and worship, like “thank you, God”. But in not doing a
regular program of meditation or stillness, it’s a feeling of guilt, of
not doing my share, my half, you might say, of the work.

Welmek: And do you find that this guilt hampers a feeling of connection
that you share with the Father?

Student: Yes, very much. Guilt is like being driven, with somebody behind
you with a whip, rather than somebody out in front of you kind of teasing
and coaxing you along. And I’ve done my best in one way to devalue this
sense of guilt, because it is a waste of time and energy. The trick for
me now seems to be coming into a heightened sensitivity, moral
sensitivity, and yet using it as we talked about as a compass, simply
pointing out the right way and not to worry too much about how short my
will is always going to be from that perception of what would be nice,
what would be better.

Welmek: We will move into another phase of the exercise to help you
overcome this guilt when everyone who wishes to share has done so. Thank
you for your comments.

Student: For me the habit which I think holds me back is being scattered
and not in focus and ‘stick-to-itiveness’ in one area that would be
fruitful to me. My mind moves very rapidly from one idea to another. So I
feel if I could somehow practice the stillness and get really into it, it
would make a big difference. But I have this business which I have
trouble in harnessing.

Welmek: And when you feel yourself in this rhythm of busyness, what
effect do you feel within your body? Could you articulate what it is you
experience at that point?

Student: I think when the lack of focus occurs, I’m not even aware of my
body.  I think I’m probably out of touch with it.  There is a feeling of
anxiety in my chest area.  (Thank you.)

Student:  I find it hard to pinpoint one specific blockage; and perhaps
that’s the blockage.  And the effect is that I don’t always catch and
grasp and follow through as fully as would be useful – the optimum choice
in the moment.  I feel less connected at those times with inner guidance
and therefore my results are less than I would otherwise, could
otherwise, accomplish.  (Thank you.)

Student:  Yes Welmek, this is D.  I too had a hard time pointing out any
precise habit.  But I do dwell a lot on, at least at this time, my
financial situation, and the debt that I owe.  And the feelings that I
get from time to time are a feeling of despondency, and feeling limited,
especially in this world.  (Thank you.)

Welmek:  Each of you has shared something very real living inside of you.
 It is actually a living thought energy that prevents you from achieving
all that you can.  It grates against your potential, and it diminishes
the relationship that you should share with the Father.  This is an
important idea to be aware of now.  As you are all on a very serious and
concerted path of rugged spiritual growth.  And I say rugged because you
all have challenges in life to face in exercising and developing greater
depths of faith within you.  

So now, as a continuation of this exercise, I wish you to take this
feeling that the habit produces within you into the stillness.   See
yourself feeling this in your being – guilt, anxiety, loss of connection
– whatever it is, feel this.  And when you feel this, ask the Father to
give you the feeling that He wishes you to experience; to exchange what
you feel for what He wishes you to feel.  And when you have ascertained
or intuited or felt what the Father wishes you to feel, please share
those with me as well.  (Pause.)

Student:  Welmek, this is J.  I think I’m just realizing this sense of
guilt leads to a kind of depression.  It’s a kind of numbness.  And I
think the Father wants more than anything else, for me to feel.  Just
that: just simply feel the life within me and all around me.  

I’d like to thank you Welmek, and my friend here, and this community now,
the Church of Jesus – Christ Michael, because more than anything else, it
leads me to feeling.  That is both a trial and a wonder!  

Welmek:  My dear friend, you have been blessed with a richly sentient
form.  And I know that the difficulties on your world can be numbing to
the bone, because the pain can be so great, and the despair such a wide
gulf to traverse.  But in staying connected to your source, by going into
the stillness, by communing with the Father, the feelings that you
experience are ones of connection – connecting you to peace, connecting
you to hope, connecting you to strength and courage, and everything that
you need to surmount the difficulties that you face in your life.

Put the guilt aside, my friend.  No longer settle for this numbness as a
means of being or living.  Come into the world and experience the wide
variety of feelings that are yours as being a child of the Father.  You
will experience emotional pain at times; you cannot avoid it on this
world.  But now you know where to return when you do feel those bitter
pangs of daily life, and asking to exchange that for which the Father
wishes you to experience.  And when you do this, you will find a depth of
emotional riches within you that will feed you and replenish your soul,
and give you new inspiration to live your life each day in cooperating
and in partnership with the Father and with your spirit within.  

Live each day with this in mind, and you will find new joy and new
dimensions of love coming your way many, many times over.  Do you
understand my meaning?  

Student:  Yes Welmek, very much.  It is something I am experiencing more
and more.  And if I could share one final thing – it is an understanding
to go through our day-to-day life sometimes in contact with dozens of
people.  There’s a social contract of being self-contained, of not
expressing one’s feelings more than what the other person or persons
want.  And this social contract is not a cynical thing, but sometimes,
actually, love.  And it is this restraint of feeling in a general social
sense that makes it wonderful to have a community of deeply feeling
friends, that is a respite from this other social contract, that makes
the Church of Christ Michael so very, very important to me right now. 
This is another social contract within the church; I cherish it very
much.  

Welmek:  As we observe the humans on this planet, we are quite stricken
by the emotional numbing that we see here.  For truly your world is a
veil of tears, and for some that is the only true escape.  And so while
this social barrier of sharing feelings exists in your culture, and you
have found a new community with whom you can share your feelings; I
encourage you to be more forthcoming in sharing your love with those who
you sense are in this state of numbness.  And you do not have to do this
in an overt way or way that would distress them.  I would say to amplify
your kindness and compassion.  Amplify your patience and understanding to
the degree that they can sense that there is something different about
you – you do not respond to them as other people do.  And this will serve
to whet their appetite, particularly if you can be around them on a
day-to-day basis.  

It does not take much in the way of bestowing love to reach your brothers
and sisters.  There is so much starvation that a little nourishment makes
a great impact.  Do you understand?

Student:  Oh yes!  Yes Welmek, I’m working on that, and I can just say
with a great, great delight it works!  One of the best tools of all is to
tease; a little smile, a little unexpected joy or whatever.  I never let
myself be fooled by other person that the other person also feels
necessary to put on, because every person is an infinity.  And that is
sensitive.  And that responds.  

I would just disagree that this is a “veil of tears”.  But again, I don’t
know exactly how callous I am sometimes, until I come into the
contrasting love of other more overtly spiritual people.  

Welmek:  You are doing your best, and that is all that is ever asked of
you.  And you are growing.  And you are experiencing more and more each
day; and that is good.  And that is as it should be.  (Thank you,
Welmek.)

Student:  I feel, if by focusing on the feeling of anxiety, I can bring
things together, and to notice the feeling in my body.  I will practice
that.  

I, too, as my friend J pointed out, I’m very grateful for the Christ
Michael community. It is a very remarkable context in which I can live
and have my being.  And it is taking me on a journey I never would have
anticipated.  And I’m grateful for it, and your participation in it!

Welmek:  We are all brothers and sisters in the same universe family.  We
share a common spiritual heritage, and we are all here to learn and to
live and to love.

In your stillness time, I encourage you to look beyond the anxiety you
experience, and to ask for those places in you where you feel anxious to
be filled with the Father’s peace and steadiness. Let your mind relax
into the idea of being upheld by the arms of the Father. Imagine that
when you are rising from your chair there is someone behind you, lifting
you underneath your arms, and actually standing you up in security and in
strength. Anxiety often short circuits certain bio-chemicals in your
physical body, and it is important now as part of your healing to ask the
Father to help you diminish those anxious places within you.

So when there is this sense of anxiety in you now draw on His peace, call
in the idea of being steadied, call on his ability to actually balance
you and strengthen you; and that each part of your being retain that
quality within it, so that your cells can mend themselves in accordance
to his will for you. Do you understand my meaning? (Yes) 

This is very important to remember, this is very vital now for your
continued progression, and so I encourage you to keep this in the
forefront of your consciousness, so that there is something within you to
serve as this constant reminder to be steadied and balanced throughout
your day. You have a challenging path ahead of you in restoring your body
to health. And your spirit must be nurtured so that it provides you the
foundation of the faith you need to keep you moving forward, and to use
this as a reminder will stimulate your faith and keep you inspired to
attain that level of healing you so desire. Do you understand this? 

Student: Yes, I do. I think that I need to carry the image in me, in
peace, as much as possible. 

Welmek: What will you use as a reminder to carry that with you throughout
your day?

Student: I think I’ll carry a picture of a dove, and that will remind me
to center myself.

Welmek: I think that is a most appropriate symbol picture for you, and I
would encourage you to keep this with you; and perhaps even to get a
figurine of a dove that you could stroke and feel, and allow that feeling
of peace to come into your body as you stroke this dove. It could be a
soft and smooth symbol figurine that will help you to feel in your
fingers, in your cells, in your body, that which you wish to evoke in
your emotions. Does this help? (Thank you, that fits.)  

Student: Well, I’d like to speak up now. Earlier I said that I wasn’t in
touch with a feeling and that was my blockage. I realize now how accurate
that was, that the blockages were a protection, has been a protection
from feeling. I feel all too much, and that this feeling, or set of
feelings, the sadness, the sorrow and grief in particular – and that I
feel too much of all that is going on around me, and that I have had to
deliberately, consciously, avoid acknowledging the reality of those
things. And yet, I still felt on another level that has been debilitating
and keeping me from acting more effectively. So the way to go somehow is
to open up to feeling in a way that acknowledges the reality of what’s
going on around and not assuming responsibility for it. And yet, taking a
stand that all of the things that need to be different are well on their
way to happen. And that whatever the will of the Father for me is clearly
and fully happening too.

Welmek: Use the pain of the world as a catalyst for greater light and
levity and love to enter into your being in a way that transcends the
immediate difficulty that you experience, into a greater perspective of
what awaits you and what you can experience now by being with and in the
Father’s love for you. It is almost as if you will sense a duality of
feeling. It will be somewhat of an emotional paradox, I daresay, for it
is a heightened sensitivity of the difficulties and the pain at one
level, but on the other end of the spectrum there will be a heightened
sense of joy and a sublime recognition of peace. Just as you feel these
deeper, sad emotions, you have an equal capacity to feel the heightened
spiritual feelings that are yours as a child of the Father. God
understands the pain of this world. And you have within you access to a
Creator Father who had intimate personal human experience of this pain
and knows how to handle those human emotions that you are so well
experienced in feeling. 

So, my brother you have many spiritual resources within you that will
help you overcome, and understand, and put into perspective that which
you have felt; and will actually give you a heightened sense of
perspective (end of tape side one) [and compassion] in your emotional
range, and make you more useful in loving service – for you will be able
to empathize with those individuals who come from the depths of despair.
And you will be able to show them how to find the love that lives within
them, as you have experienced it too. It has worked within you, to
transcend you from sadness to joy. Let yourself experience these
feelings. Do not fear them! They are not the end in and of themselves.
They are a means to find that which the Father wishes you to experience.
And in so doing this you will find the liberty and the release that you
need to continue life more successfully. Do you understand this? 

Student: More or less. I think I need a lot more of the joy part. 

Welmek: What do you do now in your life that produces joy within you?
What activities do you find particularly uplifting to you? 

Student: I’m not sure what to say at the moment. I feel somewhat
disconnected to the knowing what the answer is. 

Welmek: I would encourage you to go out and play more. Find some
recreational activities that reestablish the feeling of mirth and
childlike glee within you. Laugh, be playful, ask your spirit to move you
into those activities that will foster this joy for you. It is not good
to be in this state of blockage, as you say; and while you may find
yourself somewhat cautious about feeling the sadness, you will have more
incentive to move through this when you have immersed yourself in joyful
activity. And so I encourage you in the coming weeks to do this to your
soul’s content. Does this help?

Student: It sounds like a good idea. I am willing to do that. 

Student: Yes, Welmek, this is D. The initial word that I intuited was the
idea from the Father, the idea of freedom: spiritual and material and
fiscal freedom. Because of my present financial situation, or my material
situation, I feel a sense of entrapment and limitedness. But when I go
into the stillness I commune with our Father, I do feel this sense of
expansiveness, within and without. So I am learning to perpetuate this
habit, a new habit of freedom, of being free in the moment, no matter
what my outward situations might be. 

Welmek: Always in your life on this planet will you sense those
attachments which try to bind you and to inculcate within you a sense of
obligation. Your choice, my friend, is to determine how much you wish to
be dominated by these attachments. And there are certain attachments in
the realm of material stability that you must in your own mind come to
determine how much they will affect you. And so it is your choice. Some
people will live, not realizing they have a choice. But you, my friend,
have realized that there is another alternative. And that is to look to
the spirit realm to find that freedom from these obligations. And now you
are in the midst of attaching yourself, as it were, to this idea of
freedom in the Father; living in the moment. And this is good and this is
encouraged. 

You will find that your financial obligations will always be with you,
but it is a matter of choice now in how you will perceive these
obligations. Will they weigh you down? Will they persecute your soul? Or
will you cut your attachment to them and realize that as a child of the
Father you have certain privileges of being taken care of, and so that
your material needs are cared for. But you must do your share – by 
providing – by working, and setting those financial goals that you wish
to achieve. 

This is one area where our Master was able to achieve a certain degree of
practicality. For he understood the movement of money in the society, and
he well understood the overcare of the Father; and was able to do those
things necessary to meet the demands, the financial demands, of his
family life. You only need to ask Him to teach you how to be a good
steward of your financial resources, how to meet your obligations, and
how to transcend your attachment to them; so that this feeling of freedom
you wish to maintain can be more of an inspiration to you in your daily
living – and not be overburdened by the considerations of your debts.  He
will show you, each time you ask him, for those, I would call them
‘insights’ or ‘tricks’ of dealing with financial obligations in a
spiritual way. 

This is one area that has been greatly misunderstood on your planet. And
while we encourage all of you to be good stewards of your financial
obligations and know that you must work to maintain your material
existence, the master can give you higher meanings of how you can use
this idea of money to work more for you, instead of diminishing your
spiritual connection. 

This is a great challenge, for so much of your culture is rooted in this
economy of money; and as you are learning now the economy of faith, you
are ready to learn a new relationship with dealing with your material
life. And there is one who achieved a high understanding. And you have
access to His experience. Do you understand?

Student: Very much so, very much so. I feel this is a great, will be a
great leap of faith in me. Even now I feel the knots of the situation
slowly unbinding; and I can a feel in a sense that freedom, that
spiritual freedom that will pervade my entire life. 

Welmek: A life of freedom is yours, my friend. For there is liberty in
the spirit, and the Father wishes you to be unencumbered so that you can
achieve your potential. You can do this here and now. Do not wait until
you reach the mansion worlds. Let all of your attachments now be made
through the Father. Anchor yourself in him, even more fully than you
have. Let your spirit challenge you now to go this next step, and let the
Father lovingly show you how wonderful, how abundant, how blessed life
is, in Him.

There is no lack of inspiration living within each of you. And while much
of this is now your choice, there are those habits within you that have
worked to prevent you from achieving this. I hope this evening’s
instruction has been informative and helpful for you to use, to achieve,
to find, to experience this inspiration within you. Your path is assured.
You are well on the way. The habits you are overcoming now are losing
their grasp on you, each day you spend time in the stillness and asking
for the Father to give you what you need now to make new attachments in
your understanding of His will for you. Seek only the inspiration that
you need. You do not need to linger in what it is you must overcome. Seek
only that which inspires you, and know all the things of the past are
fading away. Good evening, my friends.