[tmtranscripts] Welmek 3-28-02

[Donna DIngillo]

WELMEK - JOYS OF EASTER
March 28, 2002


Good evening, this is your friend and teacher, Welmek, and I am glad to
rejoin you after my absence of last week.  

Tonight, I wish to share with you a presentation on the Joys of Easter. 
I have selected this topic because of the time of year, but also because
due to the spiritual quickening that is presently occurring on the
planet, there are many people who are undergoing inner turbulence.  And I
wish to punctuate this idea of the Joys of Easter with the idea that out
of great struggle and conflict comes great faith and great joy.

Each of you has had his or her own cross to bear in your lives.  Some
people struggle with abusive family members, employers, financial
difficulties, health problems.  But whatever the obstacle or difficulty
is in life, it nevertheless seems that there is this load on your
shoulder that you are bearing.  I ask you to now go into the stillness
and I wish you to recall a time in your life where you felt your cross,
and when you are ready just share it with me what that felt like and we
will continue our lesson. (Long pause) Who would like to begin with what
they felt in their experience?

Student:  I'll begin.  First of all, I feel so blessed, because there
aren't very many times in my life where I can look back and feel like
I've had a cross to bear, and had to think, where in my life was this?  I
feel so privileged that I had to search, and what came to me was when my
husband and I got separated.  And the feeling of sadness in my heart for
my children, that I still feel, and I say that's probably the weightiest
thing that I feel that I have to bear.

Welmek:  Thank you, for sharing that with me.  I appreciate your openness
and trust in revealing this to us this evening.

Student:  Welmek, I feel I can comment, maybe a little sooner than the
others, because this came up with my daughter in that "Who Am I" meeting.
 The worst thing that I had to endure was this a total sense of defeat
because my analytical mind knew that I was being separated from my wife's
former children and that I'd never have that link with them again and I
was right.  At the same time I went around the world and I had to take a
leave of absence from work, but the real yoke was not the betrayal after
trust that I was feeling or imagining, but the real burden was the
separation from those gifted children, that the speed of communication
never picked up, or was able to be increased to the same level, and time
went on.  So, that sense of defeat was very real.

Welmek:  Thank you for sharing that.  I know it is not easy, what I am
asking you to impart this evening, but I do ask you to bear with me while
we move through this exercise.  If this is uncomfortable for you, then I
do not expect you to answer.  It is not as important to reveal the
circumstances as what you experienced or felt than what that circumstance
was in your life.  

Student:  Welmek, I had a very philosophical, reflective father and I
think I developed an illusion all through high school, to be kind of a
loaner, being overly sensitive.  I had this enormous illusion, that a
certain kind of grasp of life was possible.  I could actually know what
is was all about.  And I looked around, and it seemed everybody else was
lost in their own little world, there own little subjectivity and if we
could just be objective about life, it would be a paradise.  Everything
would be all right, everything would be solved.  And sometime during my
freshman year in college, a circle closed in my mind, a circle of logic
in which I realized that what I needed most to know had to be questioned
for that very reason, because I needed so desperately to know what was
the truth.  And once that, I guess I was listening to the existential
philosophers, I went through a several year period of kind of questioning
a state of doubt that seemed to be spiraling down and down til finally I
was able to make a breakthrough by holding a cocked and loaded pistol to
my head and realizing that between my brain and my intention and my
finger on that trigger, there was a "oneness" to me and of course then I
was horrified several minutes later to think: "If this thing had gone off
by mistake, what my family might have suffered".  But there was a period
of a number of years that extended clear into the Marine Corps and all
that I experienced in there that; it was a questioning of my own
existence and, really the goodness, if you will, of the creation.  It was
very much in doubt for a long time.

Welmek:  Thank you for your openness and honesty.  

Student:  Good evening Welmek.  I look back on my life and realize that
there have been many times where I have felt a tremendous burden of life.
 Family situations, health situations, financial situations; just so many
times where I've felt just crushed by the burden of life.  And the
feeling, when I was younger, it was like going into a bottomless void, a
dark void.  And out of that I began to realize that there was something
greater than myself to trust in, and as I grew in spiritual maturity and
understood, being, placing myself in the loving hand of God and letting
all my conceptions about what was happening and how to resolve
situations, I would just fall asleep in the hand of God and wake up the
next morning and start anew, not knowing the answer, but really trusting
that God would not leave my abandoned.  And the greatest thing that I
realized was even though I thought that I would end or that I could
commit "suicide" and end it all, every morning I'd wake up whether I
wanted to or not and even if I thought that the world was going to end,
it never did.  The sun rose every morning.  And so as I grew in years I
grew in that basic trust that it would all continue.  I didn't always
have that feeling, that it would continue, but now I have that faith that
no matter what, it goes on. 

Welmek:  Thank you, for sharing your experiences.

Student:  Welmek, this is D.  And I fall along the lines of S. as well
that there have been events in my life where I've had to really fall upon
my trust in the Universal Spirit and power and I actually have felt
myself grow, expand in faith and in trust and integrity.  And I've been
experiencing that over the past five months.  I've been experiencing my
cross to bear right here and now, as we speak, over the past five months.
 And during these five months I've experienced a whole, whole panorama of
feelings and emotions running from betrayal, to being demeaned, to
feeling compassion and forgiveness and love, to fear, to renewed faith
and strength.  But I also know, I'm experiencing, and you shared this
with me, a greater authenticity of who I am and knowing that whatever
transpires in the next coming weeks, that I will be led towards greater
communion with God, with the universe, and my faith and trust in a
universe will grow and bear fruit.  And as Jesus told me to rise above it
all and I have to keep on reminding myself of that.

Welmek:  Thank you, for sharing these deep feelings with us this evening.

I did not ask you to go into that place of remembrance to trigger
feelings of pain or regret in you.  They were meant to serve as a
reminder that human life, particularly as it has been on this planet, has
been mired in much that we would consider to be dark and potentially
evil.  And so that all of you have been tinged and affected by this in
some form or fashion.  But the very fact of your presence here this
evening indicates that you are also drawn by the light forces within you.
 The illuminating spiritual presences that are now drawing within your
heart and mind to fashion in your mind a new idea of what life could be
like.  And while you have yet to taste the fullness of the life in the
light, you are well on your way to that destination.  

What I would ask you to do now, is to again to revisit that place and
when you are in that place of feeling dejected, betrayed, angry,
frustrated, ask for the light to come upon you and ask for that light to
fill your heart.  And when you have felt the fullness of the light within
your heart I would be most interested for you to share with me what your
feelings are, and what it is you feel has replaced the darkness within
you.  Take a few moments and when you feel ready please share your
feelings again.  (Long pause)

Student:  Welmek, I can share what I'm feeling now.  And I feel happy, I
have a smile on my face and I feel a lightness in my heart and a trust
that everything will be OK.

Welmek:  Thank you.

Student:  Welmek, I had an experience, I must have been about
twenty-five, I was just out of the military and back from overseas and
the Far East and Vietnam.  And I think I've learned that simply, if you
persist, it you don't give up, if just keep staying true to yourself,
even in this state of enormous doubt.  I had a whole, on a mountaintop
down at Big Sur; I had a complete super-conscious kind of death and
rebirth experience that has remained thirty-five years later still,
ineffable.  I just suddenly, I came into existence.  I was no longer
questioning even whether I was, what my nature was.  I simply - was.  And
part of that experience was just a feeling, a knowing that there was an
absolute goodness in existence.  It seemed like a perception at the time.
 Although, now I think it's more a matter of faith.  But my life just
turned around and forever since that time, I was actually kind of giddy
and high for several years afterwards.  I got accused of being a
"Pollyanna", and not taking life seriously, I was just so overwhelmed
with that experience.  But, it stayed true!

Welmek:  And; Is this what you experienced now; when you asked for the
lightto shine within you"?

Student:  Yes!  It's still there, as something that - kind of an
assurance.  The textbook has, put it in one little sentence that:  "we
little pollywogs, we little human beings, we out here in the nurseries of
time and space, taking our first tiny, tiny little baby steps into
eternity - we actually participate in God the Absolute in the simple fact
of our existence".  That one sentence gave me a great joy. (Page 1296 -2)

Welmek:  Thank you. 

Student:  Welmek, I think I can comment on what I experienced  in the now
is the best thing to say it that my Thought Adjuster will own my
personality.

Welmek:  And how does this factor in your internal environment?

Student:  That's where death is swallowed up in victory, like Handel's
"Messiah", the death has no more sting.  The defeat was real at the time,
because it was a time burden, that I knew was going to happen, but the
Thought Adjuster contact is the bright light, almost a literal light, in
the dark valley of real suffering.

Welmek:  And do you feel a sense of relief or a release?  (Student: 
Tremendous! Yes!)  Thank you.

Student:  Welmek, this is D.  As I surrender myself to the light at this
moment, I feel a sense of freedom and, and the release of the burden of
my cross to bear.  But, I still don't know the outcome but I know it will
be for my greater good and for the good of all who are involved.  All I
can do is surrender.  That's all I can do.

Welmek:  Thank you.  Our Master as he lived his human life had many
burdens on his shoulders: the watchcare of his father's family.  His
mastery of the human mind, his subsequent realization of his divine
mission while living the life in the flesh was a tremendous endeavor for
Him. And while your lives will not constitute such an endeavor, the model
that he revealed by spending time in prayerful communion with his Divine
Father, that love and light that illuminated His mind and heart gave him
all of his strength and courage and faith and direction to forge ahead
into the very jaws of death.  And while it may seem at the time to you in
human experience that escape from your trials and tribulations would seem
a way to ease your pain, it is only by forging ahead that you find true
liberty and true peace. 

The light which illuminates your mind carries within it a sword or a
laser beam, you might say, to cut through the darkness, to diminish all
of the roots of evil and any of the confusion that afflicts you as you
are moving through this conflict.  It is virtually impossible at your
level of experience to not request that this illumination come into your
being.  How could you possibly move through life, through all of your
challenges, without the answer that comes from your Divine Source? 

It was through Jesus' mastery of His human mind that allowed Him to step
forward in faith and to make the pronouncement through His ignominious
death, "Not my will, Father, but Yours be done."  And in so doing the
Father revealed to Him through the light and through His love the way to
the victory over the very, as you say, sting of death.  The resurrection
is the regeneration within your soul. The resurrection within your soul
will always yield to you this deeper meaning, this truth, this freedom.  

Each of you is becoming so much more than what you can possibly glimpse
at this time.  These experiences that you have moved through, and now
bring into the light, create a resurgence or a resurrection of a new idea
within your soul.  This new idea within you is a new meaning and value of
the Father's love within you.  Most of these experiences and meanings of
the Father's love would not be able to be born without some degree of
inner turmoil that comes from the human mind yielding over to the divine
realignment that is triggered by you inner spirit.  Each time you create
this new soul-awareness within you; you are expanding your capacity to
live and feel and know and intuit the joy and the happiness that comes
with being a child of a loving and guiding spiritual parent. 

 It is at times very difficult to go through these experience, and I am
not underplaying the difficulty that you face at the time, but it is
important to always remember that the light at the end of the tunnel will
only grow stronger the more you spend time in communion, in stillness
with the Father and asking for the guidance to grow stronger.  And to
forge that path within you heart gives you the strength to carry-on in
the midst of the difficult burdens of life. Your soul has a tremendous
capacity to experience light and joy.  Each time you experience joy,
remember, that it is something new that you have learned.  And, that your
experiences no matter how difficult they once were will always lead you
to greater happiness and awareness of all that you are becoming and all
that the Fathers' plans for you will reveal in time.  Do you have any
comments or questions at this time?  

Student: Welmek, I've been wondering for weeks how Jesus would, even tell
his parents, that he'd just like to have a little talk, a few minutes
with his Father before he went to sleep?  Was he talking with his Thought
Adjuster?  Or was the Jewish culture, just much more experienced at
teaching children to talk with their Father in Heaven, as though they
were personal friends.  That seemed to be such a very successful
technique at such a very young age.  I really wish I knew how to teach
that to young children, what he correctly hit on, even way before he was
twelve.  He was like, five!  How did he do it?  

Welmek:  Within the Jewish tradition there was the idea of an Almighty
Being who was in a sense a spiritual patriarch and under the leadings of
Jesus' Though Adjuster, he very early on was able to be inspired to want
to have a relationship with this spiritual patriarch, his Father in
Heaven.  So as you are the human father to your children, you can also
tell them that there is a parent who loves them so tenderly and fully and
understands everything that they are going through - all of their secret
thoughts.  And, that there is never anything to be ashamed of, and that
they can speak to their spiritual Father in just the way that is right
for them.  Help them to feel free to share with the Father the things
that they may have trouble in sharing with you or with their mother.  And
also reiterate to them that God will only love them and guide them the
more they go to God with their thoughts and dreams and prayers.  They
will in time begin to listen, but at first the addressing God in this way
is of utmost importance.  Do you understand?

Student:  Yes, I do.  I think it's very important thing that our culture
needs to learn, at that fragile point.  I know my boy's questioning a lot
right now and that would have helped him to have…if we had set that up
better for him.

Welmek:  But you can now encourage him to spend ten minutes or so in just
speaking with God and encouraging him to share with God everything that
is on his mind.  It is quite simple.  Does this help?  

Student:  Yes it does, and I will work with it, right away. 

Student:  Welmek, this is S. and I have been dealing with much
information this week on the United States government and it does bring
much fear to my heart and much sadness and much questioning.  And it's
like a burden that is growing and growing.  I don't know how to, how to
balance what I hear in the world, with what I feel spiritually. Can you
help?

Welmek:  My dear sister, I do empathize with your concerns. There are
many evil influences still affecting many areas of political life on this
planet. To assure you, I can say that there are many angels and spiritual
forces who are at work in these arenas and that there are humans who are
aware of the myriad complexity of political life as it now stands on this
planet.  But for you to find that place of rest in your heart, you must
in your own mind come to an understanding of whose agenda will prevail
here.  The out-workings of political struggle will still be with you for
some time to come.  You, in your own role as a citizen of this country
will be affected somewhat by this in some aspects of your own life.  But
there is another way to approach this and that is to allow yourself to
step outside of your role as U.S. citizen and to look at yourself as a
child of the universe.

What does this mean to be a child of the universe?  What boundaries are
you constrained by here?  I ask you in the coming days to consider this
idea more deeply and ask for a deeper level of encircuitment so that your
sense of identity begins to shift now in your mind from that of citizen
of a country to citizen of a universe where there is truth and beauty and
righteousness and justice and fairness and liberty and mercy and
compassion.  All of these elements will be available and sensed within
your heart and mind when you identify yourself as a child of the
universe.  And so when you step back into your identity as citizen of
this country, you will feel not so constrained by the current situation,
as you will see that these are only the out-workings of the humans who
know not of the Father's ways and of the Father's truth.  And you in your
own personal role as citizen can begin to share your truth of what you
know as a child of the universe to your brothers and sisters.  Does this
help?

Student:  Yes it does.  Thank you.

Student:  Welmek, I'd just like to thank you again for being with us and
also just in general to share with my friends here sense of this absolute
wonder that we are alive at this time at this enormous transition, just
to have the Urantia Book - something as enormous as this revelation.  It
seems we're really blessed.  When you think of all the generations and
generations of people who did not have such a thing.

Welmek:  The time is coming when the pain of the past will be washed
clean, and humans will rise from their degradation into the resurrection
and the new life.  And so in closing, the Joys of Easter are not just the
words that I speak, or the words that you read in your text, but they are
the living truth of the rebirth that occurs within your soul each time
you walk through a valley of challenges even death. 

And so in closing, I would like to lead you in an exercise once again,
and this one is to ask for the power of the resurrection that Jesus
experienced to enter into your heart and mind and fill you with the joys.
 Take a few moments now and ask for Him to come in, and to fill your
being.  (long Stillness)

On behalf of all the teachers here this evening we wish you a most happy
and joyous Easter and may the love and the power of the resurrection
within your soul continue to unfold and blossom into light and truth and
love.  Good evening.