[tmtranscripts] SEIdaho transcript 3-16-01

[Bill Kelly]

POCATELLO TEAM
March 16, 2001

Prayer by Ham (Bill): I am Ham. Let us pray.  Almighty invisible God, all
wise, all powerful, but most of all, all loving: we your children rejoice
to be in your presence, and in the midst of each other.  Let our hearts
tonight be lifted up with adoration. May we join the Supernaphim of
Paradise and bow down and worship you, First Thought, First Word, First
Center of all that is and will be.  May your love so fuse with our love
that the two shall be perfectly one.  Tonight let this experience occur to
these, my dear friends, brothers and sisters.  Even so, carry us on the
wave of the Spirit from one experience to another, from one magnitude of
joy to the heights of ecstasy in serving each other.  Let us be literally
walking in the steps of our Sovereign, Michael.  Amen.

Ham (Bob S): This is Ham.  In deference to our many guests this evening I
shall not speak long.  May I take a moment to greet all of my friends in
this group.  Resting on our long and trusting relationship, may I greet
those who are new and challenge them to begin the long walk, which is
available with their personal teacher, if they so choose.  Remember, my
friends, you have many resources on this side.  You, however, hold the key
in your hand.  If you choose to open the door, we may then step through.
Now with those words I will step aside for we have a long number of
personages here to greet you, our younger brothers and sisters, this
evening.  Until we meet again, I am Ham.

Daniel (Bill): Hello, dear ones.  I am your proud teacher, Daniel.
Tonight, as Ham has indicated, we are an august body of personages.  Not
just those who you do not see, but all of you assembled here as well.
Michael's spirit, which resides in each of us, results in his personal
presence as well.  Your seraphim are here.  Your personal teachers are
here.  Guests are present.  Visitors from other universes are present in
this standing room only gathering.  

I am pleased that we teachers have been given the honor of serving
Michael's birth place.  Our pleasure and joy to serve on this planet is
boundless.  You experience a constant droning of negativity from many
sources: people who speak of the woes of existence so that the failure and
mistakes are exaggerated in relationship to progress and spiritual growth.
We, on the other hand, cognizant of the problems and the continued barbaric
nature of much that transpires on your planet, recognize the white
background against which this dark  shows itself.  

Wonderful things are happening.  Hearts are transformed as in a manner
without a precedent in the past.  Indeed is Urantia in a spiritual
transformation.  This Teaching Mission, of which we are a part and you are
a part, is only one small part of the larger whole.  Yet it is a most
pristine endeavor.  The Father loves all of his children without
distinction, without favoritism, but there are degrees of difference due
not only to inherent, genetic differences, but also in the willingness of
individuals to open wide the door of their hearts to the spiritual
influences which surround them.  You, despite your imperfection, are here
at this time because you have opened the doors that led to this path.  You
have made those choices in the past which have brought you to this meeting
this evening.   I am not saying that you are better than others.  I am not
saying that you are more greatly loved than others.  I am saying that you
need to accept the responsibility for this point that you have reached in
your lives.  

You see, my friends, this is part of your work which you are doing.  Your
work is the same work that our Master Son did, to do the will of the
Father, and to be a servant to all.  You have accepted the commission to be
apostles to this generation.  This is not a small thing.  This is high
privilege and a great responsibility.  ‘To him that much is given is much
required'.   But do not hear this as burden.  Hear it as a privilege, as an
opportunity to express your creativity, to do your part in the completion
of the Almighty Supreme.

I am not the featured speaker this evening.  I am merely wanting to tie
together some of the thoughts of the past with this present meeting
situation this evening,.   But I will conclude with a familiar admonition.
My friends, in your prayers, pray that your eyes will be opened wider, that
your ears will be unstopped, so that the reality which surrounds you will
be able to penetrate more completely into the depths of your soul.  Tonight
it is my honor to introduce teacher Alana who will address you at this time.

Alana (Susan): This is Alana.  Your transmitter's heart is pitter-patter.
We thought this would be a good opportunity for her to test the waters.
Your pond is not so big that she runs away.  [Laughter.]  She struggles
with questions in her mind.  Does she truly want to commit herself to the
ministry she envisions, to the tasks we have spoken of, and does she choose
to expose herself, if you will?  But I believe that she will find such a
welcome as I have experienced here already myself, and that she will truly
strengthen her choice, and strengthen her voice.  She does, as you, wish to
share the heart room.  Yes?  (Response is "yes.")  So shall we construct
the heart room together?  (Response is "yes.")  My new friends, you wish to
join us?  Yes?  (Response is "yes.")  Ah, some very beautiful voices here,
and your hearts already are so open, so welcoming, that it shall be a piece
of cake.  Yes?  [Laughter.]

I ask you to focus.  Focus now.  Focus deep, deep inside, into your heart,
into the center of your heart, deep.  Open your hearts now.  Open, open
now, and allow me, allow me now to breathe with you.  As you breathe in I
shall blow love deep down into your hearts.  Into your hearts now, breathe,
breathe my love in.  As I move about the circle, breathe my love in, and
allow it to flow out through your open heart to the one across from you.
Breathe it in, and breathe it out.

Now I ask you to open the holes in your bodies.  Open the space at the top
of your head.  Open it now, and allow, allow Michael's love to pour down
through the space at the top of your head down, down into your hearts.
Fill your hearts.  Fill that space, that center of your heart with
Michael's love and Michael's light.  And open the space at the base of your
skull, the base of your skull, the tip of your neck.  Open that space, and
I shall blow love into it filling your skull, filling your skull with my
love; allowing Michael's light to pour down through the top of your head;
[allowing] my breath, my breath into the space at the base of your skull.
Down through your spine, and open the holes in your back.  Down, down the
line of your spine, open your backs now.  Open your backs, and allow me now
to blow love through the holes in your backs filling your bodies now out
through the space of your heart filling your circle now.  We are filling
the circle with my love, and Michael's light traversing to the one across
from you.  And now I would have you allow, allow my love and Michael's
light to pour down through your bodies through your paraface, down through
your legs, pour out through your feet, through your toes across to the one
across from you.  And see that light, lines of light, pouring out through
your toes across to the one before you.  And allow this love now, allow
this light to pour out through the sides of your body to the one on either
side of you.

We are constructing the walls of the heart room now.  We are together
constructing the walls of the heart room.  And I stand in the center of
your heart room now, and each of you is constructing the walls, and
allowing Michael's love and Michael's light through the space at the top of
your head, down into your bodies, out through your hearts to me, and out
through your feet to each other.  Breathe now, breathe in my love, and let
it flow through your heart center, out, out into the center of the heart room.
And I welcome you, Lori, to come now, in your heart to the center of the
heart room and rest your head in my lap, and I shall blow love upon you,
and give you voice.  And I ask anybody now, if you have doubt, bring it to
me now in the center of the heart room and I shall blow love upon it.
Bring your fear.  Let me hold it now to my heart, and I blow love upon that
fear that brings doubt to your mind and creates the confusion.  Let us all
blow love upon that confusion, and allow it now to disappear.  Allow it now
to be surrendered, surrendered up, up, up, up to the top of the heart room,
up, up, up to that small, small hole at the top of the heart room.
Surrender it now, that confusion.

We would take you to the upper chamber, but at the present time I believe
your transmitter must become more comfortable with the sense of enlarged
space of the heart room. This, you see, has been a part of her confusion,
shall we say.  Her perspective has been enlarged this evening.  She has
known a heart room as somewhat smaller, and she grew quite comfortable with
that small heart space, rather like many of you may have experienced in
your life times, and this planet, Urantia, where you begin to believe that
your heart can only expand so far.  Not larger, please, no greater.  I
cannot go any farther.  Yes?  In loving someone, in trusting someone, that
is your task.  That is your mission now.  That is your task to learn to
expand your heart space to include greater numbers of people, familiar and
unfamiliar, strangers trustworthy and not so trustworthy, even those who
have made such horrible mistakes as to cause you pain.  And this is the
experience that we brought your friends to your country and to your meeting
to have.  We wished for them, especially the transmitter, to experience the
heart room in the larger part.   So we have given her that experience, and
now I would give to you the opportunity to welcome into your heart room
those you would forgive, and we shall blow love upon them.  Yes.  Welcome
your leaders, and blow love upon them.  And breathe, breathe into your
heart room the broken hearts, the betrayals, the broken people, and we
shall blow love upon them.  Is there anyone who would speak to me at this
moment.  We shall stretch our lady a tad more, Yes?

David: Yes, she likes to stretch.

Alana (Susan): Yes, you serve her well.  Yes?

David: Yes.  I would just like to say something, Alana, if I may?  It is
very sweet to have you here in this group.  This is a new experience for
us, and my hope is that everybody loves you as much as I do.  You're such a
sweetheart.  [Mummers and nods in agreement.]  She's my lover.  I truly
love her.  

Alana (Susan): Thank you.  I have truly enjoyed giving voice to those who
find it difficult to speak with love, and we have used this beloved friend
of mine as practice in the laying on the tongue, laying love upon the
tongue.  

And yes, my friend, you wish to speak to me?  

Bill: I am very pleased to meet you, Alana.  I thank you for providing me
with another vehicle for prayer.  I have had problems trying to feel
satisfaction in prayer for others, and your heart room construct I can see
has great merit.  It also reminds me of George Bernard's Akashic Library
construct, and so for both, what you have shared in the heart room and what
George has shared, I am wanting to publicly say ‘thank you.'  (I am
speaking now as Bill.  I am not transmitting.)

Alana (Susan): Yes.  Yes, my friend.  I know your friend, Daniel, very
well.  And I thank you, and I would say to you, use this transmitter, and
we will come again with Legion and construct the heart room with you,  and
any others who may be able to join you, so that you have again the
experience of constructing the heart room.   You are correct that this is a
construct, very much as your friend George Bernard's construct.  And they
are very different, yes?  I would be most pleased to have you experience
the difference, and to question me and have a discussion again at a further
point in time about that difference, so that you may get the maximum for
your efforts, yes?

Bill: Yes, Alana.   I have to admit that I personally have not been
practicing George's construct yet; but I am planning on getting into it
this summer when I have more time after my retirement takes place.  So I
will be glad to think about what you are asking for here, the differences
and so forth, as I am sure others of us will.  If I understood what you
said maybe we can expect to have your presence with us here in Pocatello.
Did I understand this correctly?

Alana (Susan): Yes.

Bill: Very well.  Thank you.

Alana (Susan): And I would say you have already put your finger on the very
small, but great difference between the two constructs.  You will discover
the heart room once you have learned to step into it becomes yourself.  By
this I mean we are looking to teach you, the most interested, how to carry
the mission which is to love easily.  The heart room becomes you, and with
practice you become the heart room wherever and with whomever you may be.
Thank you.

Lori: Alana, I just want to tell you, you are most beautiful, and to thank
you on a very deep and personal level, because I needed to put my head on
someone's lap today after a very difficult afternoon.  And I thank you.

Alana (Susan): Yes.  Yes.  Breathe my love in, beloved one.

David: It is pretty easy ,actually.  

Alana (Susan): Yes.  Yes, and you recall, my friend, the first time you put
your head in my lap, yes?  

David: I didn't think adults could do that, but low and behold they can.
[Laughter.]

Alana (Susan): Yes.  Yes.

David: Especially your lap, Alana.

Bill: Alana, you remind me of Olfana somewhat.  Are you two related other
than spiritually?

Alana (Susan): Do you wonder if we are sisters, or cousins perhaps?

Bill: Yes, exactly.

Alana (Susan): Yes.  I think you might in your language think of a cousin
once removed.  

Bill: Thank you.

Alana (Susan): Let us say the Mother Spirit, her lap flows through my
heart, and that, my beloved is what you recognize, yes?

Bill: I believe you are right, of course, yes.

Alana (Susan): Is there another?

David: Yes, Virginia has a question.

Virginia: Actually I don't, David.  I was just identifying with Bill that I
did see a resemblance between the two teachers, and whether it's the
movement of the mortal TR, or whether it's the flow from Nebadonia, that
would certainly explain it.

Alana (Susan): Thank you.  I will gladly return.

Minearsia (Bill): Greetings, dear children, my zealous students, I am your
instructor in residence, Minearsia, with you this evening.  I am one who
has also rejoiced in the presence of our guest, Alana, this evening. 
 
Alana, my dear, you are certain to receive an invitation to meet with this
gang again [Laugher.] for they are good students, and spiritually hungry
for your truth and your way of expressing the old truth, the love which is
the source of all reality.

I, my friends, have not spoken with you recently for Daniel was assigned
the task of doing his series on self-esteem, so therefor, this phase of our
curriculum is at an end.  However the material bears constant rehearsal.
You have by no means mastered it.  You have merely been given the lectures.
 The workbook will now unfold.  I see where Alana's heart room construct is
one such exercise, therefore I strongly urge you all to add it to your
repertoire of paradigms.  Continue to use George Bernard's construct, but I
strongly urge you now to endeavor to master it, the heart room, so that it
will become you, and you will become the heart room, so that you will have
the moment by moment contact experience with your Indwelling Adjuster, so
that like Jesus in his perfected humanity you too can move with that
assurance and confidence and faith.

I will conclude our meeting, my friends.  You have much on your plate, and
you are avid connoisseurs of spiritual gourmet food.  Therefor, I know you
will do well.  All of our love is to you all.  I speak for all spiritual
and morontial beings here present this evening.  Go in peace.  Go with
strength.  Let the love flow.  Good evening.